I feel I no longer know what is right.. I don't feel I can survive in such a state... my desire for possessions is incomparable to the yearning I have for the people who used to be there in my life, who regardless of what may have happened seem to still exist in my heart... I think that it's ridiculous and weak how tightly I hold on to those who have hurt me, my mind focused on facts, doesn't desire their attention and yet my heart so boldly screams for their presence. What would happen if you could hear the sound of my heart... so weakly beating... causing delusions of hope in my life... on a clear note, I know for you there is no return and